As usual he walks to his own home to sleep in his bed
And i think i am really gonna eat sum ehhh....yeah....
yeah aiite
i'll cut it then
no problem
talk to you later love you too...bye
*he returns to playing the xbox racing game*
we shud eat sumthing soon
yeah
lets go upstairs and eat sumthing?
*continues to playing the xbox racing game*
everyone gets up and leaves upstairs"
everyone comes back hours later*
Wah are you driving?
theres so many cars on the track, its almost impossible to drive in a straight track...
god i lost in the last second...
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Friday, November 27, 2009
blog entry 25th Nov
Time...to press restart...
Its been a long time since i've gotten the courage to write here...
Matter of fact me writing here again means that i've once again got a lot on my mind...i've gone through all the posts that I have written so far in this blog and realized that it really helps me keep track of my life...its been ups and downs, twists, turns and dead ends...giggling girls and passionate romance...filthy dry drugged kisses and cute cuddly hugs...
i've let go of many things that I cherish...yeah I still cherish these things but i've let it go...i've let my hands keep typing while my mind and heart floats away....i've learned to let go of what which gives me power and embrace which ever that makes my soul happy...the time and place where my heart is, is a complete mystery even to me...short term memory has riddled my body and i've come to admit that I too have fallen victim to the tides of time and even though many wonderful faces keep floating in and out of my dreams, I havent told any of them how much they mean to me...i've recklessly given up on reminding them that I am here and I still do love them and care about them...do I really need to keep on reminding them that I do? Just coz you cant see the sun, it doesnt mean its not there...
now, there are those that still reach out to me and they make my world a wonderful place...and I am glad that there are some who still reply to my mails and remember my face...the past few months, the past 6 months actually I have been extremely selfish and kept myself far away from everyone...i was with the one I love...and I brushed aside all those that love me...
nevertheless...wah has happened has happened and once again I have to admit defeat...i was lost in my own world for far too long and reality is shining through like the bright afternoon sun that you see after a long time in a world of nightlong parties and day long sleeping...i begin to realize...that the worlds not such a bad place and no matter wah you do, you'll surely end up either being aiite or dead...i've found a way to please my rampant mind...talking to sumone who feels the same way abt me as I do and sumone whose a constant reminder of what I have been...and talking to the person who gave me back my heart and soul and my passion to be what I can be...these people are the ones who really matter...these people are my family and loved ones....
Its been a long time since i've gotten the courage to write here...
Matter of fact me writing here again means that i've once again got a lot on my mind...i've gone through all the posts that I have written so far in this blog and realized that it really helps me keep track of my life...its been ups and downs, twists, turns and dead ends...giggling girls and passionate romance...filthy dry drugged kisses and cute cuddly hugs...
i've let go of many things that I cherish...yeah I still cherish these things but i've let it go...i've let my hands keep typing while my mind and heart floats away....i've learned to let go of what which gives me power and embrace which ever that makes my soul happy...the time and place where my heart is, is a complete mystery even to me...short term memory has riddled my body and i've come to admit that I too have fallen victim to the tides of time and even though many wonderful faces keep floating in and out of my dreams, I havent told any of them how much they mean to me...i've recklessly given up on reminding them that I am here and I still do love them and care about them...do I really need to keep on reminding them that I do? Just coz you cant see the sun, it doesnt mean its not there...
now, there are those that still reach out to me and they make my world a wonderful place...and I am glad that there are some who still reply to my mails and remember my face...the past few months, the past 6 months actually I have been extremely selfish and kept myself far away from everyone...i was with the one I love...and I brushed aside all those that love me...
nevertheless...wah has happened has happened and once again I have to admit defeat...i was lost in my own world for far too long and reality is shining through like the bright afternoon sun that you see after a long time in a world of nightlong parties and day long sleeping...i begin to realize...that the worlds not such a bad place and no matter wah you do, you'll surely end up either being aiite or dead...i've found a way to please my rampant mind...talking to sumone who feels the same way abt me as I do and sumone whose a constant reminder of what I have been...and talking to the person who gave me back my heart and soul and my passion to be what I can be...these people are the ones who really matter...these people are my family and loved ones....
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
and now abt how much shee loves me:D
HONEY AND ALL OTHERS PLEASE READ THE PREVIOUS POST FIRST AND THEN THIS ONE....OTHERWISE IT WONT MAKE ANY SENSE TO YOU OR ANYONE ELSE
well:D i know she has problems with telling and showing me how she really feels and this is to show that i understand that:D
i know u wudnt expect this after the previous emotional one but that i put so that u will see how much i really understand that u love me
My darling girlfriend
First when i was with her she was just simply using me and i loved being used by her:P she was my friend with benefits:D and i loved it....and i babbled a bunch of stupid things saying that i love her and want her sooo much and that she should really think abt being together with me as a couple...she warned me and told me she doesnt want it....coz this was perfect for her:P and then slowly she fell in love with me and so did i...but slowly is rather dull...it was fast and i dont know how it happend but soon i found out that i was in love with a beautiful girl and i was crazy abt her....it was intense and i dare say even now we are so much more intense together...so passionate in each others arms and so wonderfuly happy wen we are together...well apart from the rare random occasions maybe once every month or two months...when we used to fight and i used to bite her lips really hard...and i was a bit aggressive during these odd fights...mostly we fighted coz we annoyed the hell outta each other sumtimes:D and u know honey its true wen i say this...we fight over the stupidest smallest things...like i might get annoyed and sooo pissed wen she is in a shop and doesnt know wah to chose and she tells me that she likes those taco chip packets and then tell me that i shudnt buy them coz they are for 4 KM ....and thats expensive and the people in the world are starving....well i know it is my biggest weakness and mistake that i get soo uncontrolably pissed abt this kind of stupid things...and any other girl would have left me if i bit her lips so hard that is gets blue:S i am sorry!!! really...and after like 7 or 8 of these kings of stupid fights she has still been with me and i am sooo happy for that...and i have honestly stopped being like that and i have controlled my behavior at all!!! i am so happy and proud of myself for that actually...and i am so glad that u my darling have been supporting me through all this...and the funny thing abt these things is that she cannot stay mad at me for a long time and i cannot either...we need to be in each others arms almost a few hours after any fight at the max a day after it...i dont know why and i dont know how but i know we need each other and will need each other for a time to come...
now abt her sweetness...she is a girl who hasnt been in a relationship with any guy for more than a month (and so far as i remember she didnt have any real lovers...just like three or four guys in her life that wasnt even considered much of a boyfriend) and she warned me wen we got together that she was gonna break up with me in one month...and wen one month came she didnt break up with me and she said in two months but still two months passed and now next 11th of the month wud be 10 whole months together:D now she doesnt really know how to show that she loves me....but i know she does try hard at it:P and i know she loves me...coz she does things...not so much as i do...but she does sweet things...and those things mean the world to me...she brought me wildflowers once and she does leave me notes on farmville from time to time...and she specially and surely dedicate sum of her little drawings and notes in her note book to me...one time she drew a cute cartoon of me and her...me wearing the striped red t shirt that she loves me wearing...and my big huge blue jeans...my fav jeans....and she drew me in a darker shade of chocolate:P and she also made the my 19th birthday the happiest and most wonderful birthday ever...she left me suprises all day long with things i love... and lets not mention how she loves sharing chocolate with me:P coz i love chocolate and she too.... and wen she writes me a mail or sumthing she does it in a way that it really means so much coming from her heart...even though its rare times that she opens her heart to me...she does it and its increasing ever so often...i know its because she is afraid to truly let herself love and be hurt by a man that she is ever so hesitant in showing it...and she has all these excuses to tell me that she isnt like that...that its not who she is to be like that...but i know she is afraid to love truly and that its a miracle in itself for her to be with me even now coz she simply has hid her heart from everyone and i managed to get to it sumhow...honey i know that you love me a lot....and i know that sumtimes...deep inside of ur heart u want to spend an amazing lot of time loving me...and i promise...that u have my heart in ur hands to chose to do wah ever u wish to it...yeah the red beatin bloody heart of mine:P and no matter wah it takes...i am gonna be with u...for as long as my heart beats in ur hands....dont squish it or throw it or drop it okey:P
now an apology....in all this i havent talked abt the future one bit honey...but now i am sorry but i will mention it a little...i know for sure that tomorrow i will see you and have you in my arms....and i will show to u that u can love me the same as before...without any fear that ur heart might be hurt....
my love i do hope you read this clearly and know that i know how much you love me...and i am sorry to say it...but you love me a hell lot more than i can ever love you....but its in a different kind of way:D and u have proven enough to me that...and plus honey....when we are together...dont we enjoy every second of it:D
te quiero mi vida
well:D i know she has problems with telling and showing me how she really feels and this is to show that i understand that:D
i know u wudnt expect this after the previous emotional one but that i put so that u will see how much i really understand that u love me
My darling girlfriend
First when i was with her she was just simply using me and i loved being used by her:P she was my friend with benefits:D and i loved it....and i babbled a bunch of stupid things saying that i love her and want her sooo much and that she should really think abt being together with me as a couple...she warned me and told me she doesnt want it....coz this was perfect for her:P and then slowly she fell in love with me and so did i...but slowly is rather dull...it was fast and i dont know how it happend but soon i found out that i was in love with a beautiful girl and i was crazy abt her....it was intense and i dare say even now we are so much more intense together...so passionate in each others arms and so wonderfuly happy wen we are together...well apart from the rare random occasions maybe once every month or two months...when we used to fight and i used to bite her lips really hard...and i was a bit aggressive during these odd fights...mostly we fighted coz we annoyed the hell outta each other sumtimes:D and u know honey its true wen i say this...we fight over the stupidest smallest things...like i might get annoyed and sooo pissed wen she is in a shop and doesnt know wah to chose and she tells me that she likes those taco chip packets and then tell me that i shudnt buy them coz they are for 4 KM ....and thats expensive and the people in the world are starving....well i know it is my biggest weakness and mistake that i get soo uncontrolably pissed abt this kind of stupid things...and any other girl would have left me if i bit her lips so hard that is gets blue:S i am sorry!!! really...and after like 7 or 8 of these kings of stupid fights she has still been with me and i am sooo happy for that...and i have honestly stopped being like that and i have controlled my behavior at all!!! i am so happy and proud of myself for that actually...and i am so glad that u my darling have been supporting me through all this...and the funny thing abt these things is that she cannot stay mad at me for a long time and i cannot either...we need to be in each others arms almost a few hours after any fight at the max a day after it...i dont know why and i dont know how but i know we need each other and will need each other for a time to come...
now abt her sweetness...she is a girl who hasnt been in a relationship with any guy for more than a month (and so far as i remember she didnt have any real lovers...just like three or four guys in her life that wasnt even considered much of a boyfriend) and she warned me wen we got together that she was gonna break up with me in one month...and wen one month came she didnt break up with me and she said in two months but still two months passed and now next 11th of the month wud be 10 whole months together:D now she doesnt really know how to show that she loves me....but i know she does try hard at it:P and i know she loves me...coz she does things...not so much as i do...but she does sweet things...and those things mean the world to me...she brought me wildflowers once and she does leave me notes on farmville from time to time...and she specially and surely dedicate sum of her little drawings and notes in her note book to me...one time she drew a cute cartoon of me and her...me wearing the striped red t shirt that she loves me wearing...and my big huge blue jeans...my fav jeans....and she drew me in a darker shade of chocolate:P and she also made the my 19th birthday the happiest and most wonderful birthday ever...she left me suprises all day long with things i love... and lets not mention how she loves sharing chocolate with me:P coz i love chocolate and she too.... and wen she writes me a mail or sumthing she does it in a way that it really means so much coming from her heart...even though its rare times that she opens her heart to me...she does it and its increasing ever so often...i know its because she is afraid to truly let herself love and be hurt by a man that she is ever so hesitant in showing it...and she has all these excuses to tell me that she isnt like that...that its not who she is to be like that...but i know she is afraid to love truly and that its a miracle in itself for her to be with me even now coz she simply has hid her heart from everyone and i managed to get to it sumhow...honey i know that you love me a lot....and i know that sumtimes...deep inside of ur heart u want to spend an amazing lot of time loving me...and i promise...that u have my heart in ur hands to chose to do wah ever u wish to it...yeah the red beatin bloody heart of mine:P and no matter wah it takes...i am gonna be with u...for as long as my heart beats in ur hands....dont squish it or throw it or drop it okey:P
now an apology....in all this i havent talked abt the future one bit honey...but now i am sorry but i will mention it a little...i know for sure that tomorrow i will see you and have you in my arms....and i will show to u that u can love me the same as before...without any fear that ur heart might be hurt....
my love i do hope you read this clearly and know that i know how much you love me...and i am sorry to say it...but you love me a hell lot more than i can ever love you....but its in a different kind of way:D and u have proven enough to me that...and plus honey....when we are together...dont we enjoy every second of it:D
te quiero mi vida
she's just not that into me
i wonder when i will actually realize this...honestly i don't want to realize this
she's just not that into me...she doesnt need me like i need her...she doesnt love me as much as she used to...and she doesnt even think that i am the guy for her...she doesnt mail me as much as she used to, coz she doesnt like replying to mails...but wah abt sending a mail? she doesnt even have any kind of dreams abt me being in her life for longer than maybe a year more...she knows for sure that i am not the guy that she wants to spend the her life with...no hopes...no dreams...no sort of romantic feelings or ideas abt me...i mean its not much to dream abt sumthing and trying to live that dream...i mean yeah maybe i might not be with her in a year or even a month or even the next week...but right now when she is with me...i wonder why she tells me that she knows that there is no future in us...that she doesnt do too much of an effort to make both of us the happiest...of course i try to keep her happy the most i can...and i know i have made enough mistakes to deserve this kind of response from such a wonderful girl...but i really wonder...no i really wish...that she would atleast make this the happiest time for me while she is still with me...she tells me not to talk abt the future...coz she doesnt know wah it will be...i agree...but if she says that and also says that i should "carpe diem" (seize the day) maybe she should follow her own advice a bit more...and since she is having her days right now with me...why does she talk abt the future and tell me that she dont think we will last soo sooo looong:S why doesnt she tell me that today she loves me the most in the whole wide world and while she does it...why doesnt she show it to me...yeah i am complaining...its true she shows it a lot...but...for her other things are more important...i know she loves me a lot...really a lot...but she should seize her day since she knows for sure that i am not gonna be with her for tooo tooo looong then maybe she should stop and think...what will make this the best possible and the happiest...for both...i no longer think abt the future...i no longer care abt it...but in fact by her saying that she knows she wont be spending the rest of her life with me makes things harder for me...and that is abt the future...and she shouldnt talk abt the future...she should spend every second of her time that she spends with me like she wants to spend her whole life with me...because for her...since she doesnt know abt the future...every day should be her whole life...and i am just being selfish and complaining...i know it and honey if you read this its just a whole bunch of emotional bullshit...dont think abt this too much...
i know that you love me, i know that you care about me...i know that you dont want to leave me...and i know you wont leave me...and i know all this because i know i love you...
and i know also sadly...that ur not so much into me as u were before...and its because of how i was...before...with around seven times that i was uncontrolrably angry and i hurt you...i would give anything to go back and change that...then i am sure u wud still love me like the way u used to...so passionately and like there was nothing else in the world more important to you then me...even if that feeling was short lived due to my mistakes...i still wish if sumhow it wud be like that again...that you wud love me like that again...and it was beautiful....
but if this is wah i have to live with...i am more than grateful that you gave me this much even after how much i hurt you....after all wah i did...i dont think i even deserve this much...but honey its been more than three months since i have truly changed my ways....and i hope that in time that u can come to love me more...not less...for i have surely suffered enough for wah i did...
she's just not that into me...she doesnt need me like i need her...she doesnt love me as much as she used to...and she doesnt even think that i am the guy for her...she doesnt mail me as much as she used to, coz she doesnt like replying to mails...but wah abt sending a mail? she doesnt even have any kind of dreams abt me being in her life for longer than maybe a year more...she knows for sure that i am not the guy that she wants to spend the her life with...no hopes...no dreams...no sort of romantic feelings or ideas abt me...i mean its not much to dream abt sumthing and trying to live that dream...i mean yeah maybe i might not be with her in a year or even a month or even the next week...but right now when she is with me...i wonder why she tells me that she knows that there is no future in us...that she doesnt do too much of an effort to make both of us the happiest...of course i try to keep her happy the most i can...and i know i have made enough mistakes to deserve this kind of response from such a wonderful girl...but i really wonder...no i really wish...that she would atleast make this the happiest time for me while she is still with me...she tells me not to talk abt the future...coz she doesnt know wah it will be...i agree...but if she says that and also says that i should "carpe diem" (seize the day) maybe she should follow her own advice a bit more...and since she is having her days right now with me...why does she talk abt the future and tell me that she dont think we will last soo sooo looong:S why doesnt she tell me that today she loves me the most in the whole wide world and while she does it...why doesnt she show it to me...yeah i am complaining...its true she shows it a lot...but...for her other things are more important...i know she loves me a lot...really a lot...but she should seize her day since she knows for sure that i am not gonna be with her for tooo tooo looong then maybe she should stop and think...what will make this the best possible and the happiest...for both...i no longer think abt the future...i no longer care abt it...but in fact by her saying that she knows she wont be spending the rest of her life with me makes things harder for me...and that is abt the future...and she shouldnt talk abt the future...she should spend every second of her time that she spends with me like she wants to spend her whole life with me...because for her...since she doesnt know abt the future...every day should be her whole life...and i am just being selfish and complaining...i know it and honey if you read this its just a whole bunch of emotional bullshit...dont think abt this too much...
i know that you love me, i know that you care about me...i know that you dont want to leave me...and i know you wont leave me...and i know all this because i know i love you...
and i know also sadly...that ur not so much into me as u were before...and its because of how i was...before...with around seven times that i was uncontrolrably angry and i hurt you...i would give anything to go back and change that...then i am sure u wud still love me like the way u used to...so passionately and like there was nothing else in the world more important to you then me...even if that feeling was short lived due to my mistakes...i still wish if sumhow it wud be like that again...that you wud love me like that again...and it was beautiful....
but if this is wah i have to live with...i am more than grateful that you gave me this much even after how much i hurt you....after all wah i did...i dont think i even deserve this much...but honey its been more than three months since i have truly changed my ways....and i hope that in time that u can come to love me more...not less...for i have surely suffered enough for wah i did...
Sunday, July 19, 2009
the girl with the beautiful smile
te quiero mi vida,
the fading sun as it sets in the into west
her long shadow standing in the cold wind
her blue sea eyes searching as they rest
upon the lone figure that's in her mind
my darling love, i've missed you so much
and your beautiful eyes, i can't watch them sad
my beautiful bird, i'm longing for your touch...
and its true your driving me completely mad...
ohh how my heart beats as she wander into my thought
and how i know that her heart aches more for me
the girl with the beautiful smile, how she has my heart caught
in a grip thats so tight, i dont know what to do or be
the girl with the beautiful smile, makes my life wonderful
and without her smile, my days wont be meaningful
my darling butterfly, please will you take my love
and forgive me for being a big bore?
its true i am obsessed about you my dove
and i love you so much more and more
each day your smile makes me fall in love with you
all over again, the simple way that your eyes shine up
when you smile, the way the cute little wrinkles come around
your eyes, and the way that ur pink lips curl up
forming the most beautiful smile i have ever seen,
makes my life the happiest its ever been
i just hope that i am not too late, in making you happy
that this stupid poem would at least make a smiling puppy
i am confusing and i am hard to be with as you know
but i am glad that your heart is all mine now
and i hope that i make you happy day by day more
so that you'd have something worth holding on for more
may your morning be happy as you see this stupid long poem
you should know that if i were there with you, you should definitely
kiss me so hard as that my lips hurt and my eyes water
coz thats what i deserve for being such an ass
but anyways honey i love you beyond words could ever explain
and i know you love me beyond doubt true, pure and plain
the boy in her thoughts walks up from behind as the sun set,
embraces her in his arms, whispering sweet words
they look away towards the sea, as the last rays let,
and they kiss falling deep into their own beautiful worlds,
te quiero siempre
the fading sun as it sets in the into west
her long shadow standing in the cold wind
her blue sea eyes searching as they rest
upon the lone figure that's in her mind
my darling love, i've missed you so much
and your beautiful eyes, i can't watch them sad
my beautiful bird, i'm longing for your touch...
and its true your driving me completely mad...
ohh how my heart beats as she wander into my thought
and how i know that her heart aches more for me
the girl with the beautiful smile, how she has my heart caught
in a grip thats so tight, i dont know what to do or be
the girl with the beautiful smile, makes my life wonderful
and without her smile, my days wont be meaningful
my darling butterfly, please will you take my love
and forgive me for being a big bore?
its true i am obsessed about you my dove
and i love you so much more and more
each day your smile makes me fall in love with you
all over again, the simple way that your eyes shine up
when you smile, the way the cute little wrinkles come around
your eyes, and the way that ur pink lips curl up
forming the most beautiful smile i have ever seen,
makes my life the happiest its ever been
i just hope that i am not too late, in making you happy
that this stupid poem would at least make a smiling puppy
i am confusing and i am hard to be with as you know
but i am glad that your heart is all mine now
and i hope that i make you happy day by day more
so that you'd have something worth holding on for more
may your morning be happy as you see this stupid long poem
you should know that if i were there with you, you should definitely
kiss me so hard as that my lips hurt and my eyes water
coz thats what i deserve for being such an ass
but anyways honey i love you beyond words could ever explain
and i know you love me beyond doubt true, pure and plain
the boy in her thoughts walks up from behind as the sun set,
embraces her in his arms, whispering sweet words
they look away towards the sea, as the last rays let,
and they kiss falling deep into their own beautiful worlds,
te quiero siempre
Saturday, July 18, 2009
don't say a single word
this is of course a metaphoric story about love, not much of a story but sumthing to read...
dont say a word, coz your eyes tell me more than your words...
he's always in my mind...but i dont miss him... it feels good not to miss him...coz when i was missing him it felt like sumthing inside me was squeezing my insides....i needed to see him...i needed him...i'm so much more happier now...that i am myself again...the butterflies have stopped fluttering around in my stomach...i know i love him...ohhh i love him sooo much...but sadly i dont feel so...uhh how do i explain...so in love with him...i dont feel so crazy...but i do love him...coz he's the best thing that happened to me so far...the only thing that makes me so happy....ever wondered how it is to love someone so madly deeply and crazily...that it hurts sometimes to not be around him...and then...it all stopped...well because he made mistakes...and i dont have the strength or the will to be in love with him...but he is the one person that i love the most and i dont want to lose him and i know i wont ever lose him...coz i know he really loves me beyond any doubt...but sometimes he gets so hurt when he misses me...coz i dont miss him the same way he does...well of course i dont anymore...this is who i am now...before ...i was a bit too crazy...a bit not myself...but then why does my heart still ache when he isnt around...why does my lips miss his touch....why does my heart still feels like its being squeezed when his eyes are not shining happily??? i dont really know...
my sweetest darling...
when i look into your deep eyes...
i find the answers i'm looking for
the tears that have never left your eyes
the wounds thats never been healed
don't say a thing, coz darling your eyes
tell me more than your words
dont say a word, coz your eyes tell me more than your words...
he's always in my mind...but i dont miss him... it feels good not to miss him...coz when i was missing him it felt like sumthing inside me was squeezing my insides....i needed to see him...i needed him...i'm so much more happier now...that i am myself again...the butterflies have stopped fluttering around in my stomach...i know i love him...ohhh i love him sooo much...but sadly i dont feel so...uhh how do i explain...so in love with him...i dont feel so crazy...but i do love him...coz he's the best thing that happened to me so far...the only thing that makes me so happy....ever wondered how it is to love someone so madly deeply and crazily...that it hurts sometimes to not be around him...and then...it all stopped...well because he made mistakes...and i dont have the strength or the will to be in love with him...but he is the one person that i love the most and i dont want to lose him and i know i wont ever lose him...coz i know he really loves me beyond any doubt...but sometimes he gets so hurt when he misses me...coz i dont miss him the same way he does...well of course i dont anymore...this is who i am now...before ...i was a bit too crazy...a bit not myself...but then why does my heart still ache when he isnt around...why does my lips miss his touch....why does my heart still feels like its being squeezed when his eyes are not shining happily??? i dont really know...
my sweetest darling...
when i look into your deep eyes...
i find the answers i'm looking for
the tears that have never left your eyes
the wounds thats never been healed
don't say a thing, coz darling your eyes
tell me more than your words
Thursday, July 2, 2009
lets get started?
insecurities are like a parasite which mutates rapidly and has the capability of destroying everything you have...it multiplies so fast that its practically impossible to stop...
i need to stop...so i'll stop with being an insecure obsessive idiot, coz more than anything else...i fear i might ruin something that i never wanna ruin...
instead...let me tell you a story...no more of a fairy tale?
The kingdom of Illiania
Once upon a time, in a land far far away from our own. There was kingdom of strange, mysterious creatures called Illians. They looked like humans for the most, except they were much more smaller than humans and at a certain age, there body transforms into a spirit like form and they float away into the sky. This story is about a young illian boy. Elis.
As a little boy Elis loved to wander off into the woods and play with the trees and the beauty of the rivers and many hills that surrounded the kingdom. Little did Elis know of the mysteries that lay beyond the forests surrounding the kingdom. It was forbidden for any to wander beyond the woods and it has never been done by any illidian.
One summer evening as Elis was playing alone in the forest with his trusty magical ball he smelled the faint wiff of smoke in the air. Curious Elis wandered towards the direction he thought that the smell was coming. It was already late in the evening and the sun was fast sinking towards the horizon. As the sun shined its last rays of light, the whole forest was slowly falling into the darkness of night...
i an writing bullshit now...damn.... i'll stop this too:D
the thing is...i know i have been rather insecure...and i know its not the right time and that i really dont have any reason to...but i still am insecure:D i simply can't change that...and i am sorry that i cannot change it...
another thing is...i really should stop thinking about this too much...i should stop thinking at all...actually the best advice i've ever had comes from the girl i love....she has always been correct about all the shit and she really keeps it real...and i respect that very much...but its in my nature...in my blood...maybe a curse or not...that i want simply everything i fall in love with...and i am in love with you honey...so madly...actually i think you might have realized that i am this in love with you rather the last few months eh?...well again the point is...
and all this is my thoughts at this late hour tonight....
i want to love you the most...i want to love you like no one ever has loved you....and i am gonna show with every cell in my body and every drop of my blood that i...am...able to love you the way you have never dreamed of...that i am able to change all my bad habits and my obvious agressiveness into a far more decent and meaningful form....that i am who you fell in love with...and i want your happiness....
i need to stop...so i'll stop with being an insecure obsessive idiot, coz more than anything else...i fear i might ruin something that i never wanna ruin...
instead...let me tell you a story...no more of a fairy tale?
The kingdom of Illiania
Once upon a time, in a land far far away from our own. There was kingdom of strange, mysterious creatures called Illians. They looked like humans for the most, except they were much more smaller than humans and at a certain age, there body transforms into a spirit like form and they float away into the sky. This story is about a young illian boy. Elis.
As a little boy Elis loved to wander off into the woods and play with the trees and the beauty of the rivers and many hills that surrounded the kingdom. Little did Elis know of the mysteries that lay beyond the forests surrounding the kingdom. It was forbidden for any to wander beyond the woods and it has never been done by any illidian.
One summer evening as Elis was playing alone in the forest with his trusty magical ball he smelled the faint wiff of smoke in the air. Curious Elis wandered towards the direction he thought that the smell was coming. It was already late in the evening and the sun was fast sinking towards the horizon. As the sun shined its last rays of light, the whole forest was slowly falling into the darkness of night...
i an writing bullshit now...damn.... i'll stop this too:D
the thing is...i know i have been rather insecure...and i know its not the right time and that i really dont have any reason to...but i still am insecure:D i simply can't change that...and i am sorry that i cannot change it...
another thing is...i really should stop thinking about this too much...i should stop thinking at all...actually the best advice i've ever had comes from the girl i love....she has always been correct about all the shit and she really keeps it real...and i respect that very much...but its in my nature...in my blood...maybe a curse or not...that i want simply everything i fall in love with...and i am in love with you honey...so madly...actually i think you might have realized that i am this in love with you rather the last few months eh?...well again the point is...
and all this is my thoughts at this late hour tonight....
i want to love you the most...i want to love you like no one ever has loved you....and i am gonna show with every cell in my body and every drop of my blood that i...am...able to love you the way you have never dreamed of...that i am able to change all my bad habits and my obvious agressiveness into a far more decent and meaningful form....that i am who you fell in love with...and i want your happiness....
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